SHERMIE❤

2010-03-04T11:05:00.001-08:00

shifted. text me for my new link.

2010-03-04T10:27:00.000-08:00

fucking A. this is the tattoo i wanted for myself.
tho i hav t admit. this model's body look mad chio.
photoshop. im getting you!

i wanna get this.

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ooookayyy. C. u win!
im getting tumblr. NOW. im moving NOW.
follow me on tumblr! HAHAH. ((:

2010-03-04T09:53:00.000-08:00

i feel lik joining tumblr.
stupid... before i recreate this blog.
i already got the urge t switch t tumblr.
and C just tempt me. best.
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meet with CY, too early.
i cant. i dunwanna go home yet.
so. last min. supper.
had a nice laugh.
we own practically the whole shop.
just lik ytd's steamboat with the gang.
we laugh lik we own the whole damn shop. LOL.
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yeahh, im single.
yeahh, im fine.
livable.
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J says. im not heartless lik i thought.
i say, OH so im heartful? TYVM. (thankyouverymuch)
ok, dun bother checking. there is no such word.
its the kailing's dict. =D
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took 63 to meet CY.
went past sim drive, when there used t be only memories of me, yan, C.
but no, now there is you in it.
went past geylang. went past bugis.
and i wondered.
merely three months.
how the hell u manage t appear everywhere in my life.
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note: we dun meet everyday.
lucky thing. not much memories in ubi.
livable. yess, very livable.
i'll live with it. wun die.
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i saw couples aft couples.
and i wondered. whatever happened to us.
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i saw his fb.
yet another thing i detest.
yeahyeah. i stalk. whatever.
sth abt, he can giv u happiness.
wish you and him the best.
blahblah.
see le more dulan. totally.
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so generous of you.
yeahh, i accept your wishes.
thanks. dunno which him you're talking abt.
but doesn matter.
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totally treat me lik a fucking toy.
or maybe a pet.
like, oh, i think my "dog" like this flavour more.
so, okayyy, buy this flavour.
except that, a dog cnt voice out objections.
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it doesn matter who.
it doesn matter if he can make me laugh more.
it doesn matter if he can gimme happiness.
it doesn matter if he is fucking richer.
it doesn matter if he gives in to me more.
it doesn matter even if you gonna die.
it's my choice that matters bodok!
whatever. you can go suck ****.
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mad pissed.

lies. lied. lying. liar

2010-03-04T02:02:00.000-08:00

whatever you say, said, are saying.

ima heartless bitch.

i dun care abt others.

yes thats me.

WHATEVER.

recalling every negative things you said abt me.

getting pissed at the accusations.

no, im not gonna explain myself.

no, im not gonna let ppl do decision making for me.

no, im not a heartless bitch.

if you think im.

then so be it.

im indecisive.

i throw tantrums.

i dun care abt others.

cus im self centered.

WHATEVER!

just becus i dun show, doesn mean im wad i mentioned above.

FUCKING A*

2010-03-04T00:38:00.001-08:00

decisions/choices

you once said this.

sth abt im indecisive.

always wanting ppl t help me decide.

always wanting ppl t do things for me.

no, im not such person.

you are fucking wrong.

i make my own decisions.

i dun let ppl decide what is good for me.

esp ppl who are noble/trying t act noble.

FUCKING A*

2010-03-03T23:48:00.000-08:00

not a toy

i hate it when people ask me such things.
-"will you be happier without me?"
-" will you be happier if i let you go?"
-"will you be happier if you are single?"

G asked this once i think.
J asked this several times.
even B assked this before.
and now. holy shiit.
W also asked this.
fuck.
do i look a retard?
so much so. ppl suspect i prefer to live with LESS happiness.
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IF
you wanna leave.
just leave.

IF
you think you are not capable of giving me happiness.
please leave also.

IF
you think you are being noble.
you can leave also.

sorry, i do not appreciate ppl being noble. i prefer selfish bastards. J like that, W also like that.

men around me either love t act noble.

or they are noble by nature.

choices

2010-03-03T23:39:00.000-08:00

choices

consequences. consequences. consequences.

kailing.

are you prepared for it?

2010-02-28T10:53:00.000-08:00

i should sleep.

it's 3am.

i blogged.

i spoke.

i waited.

it should suffice.

goodnight people.

you wouldn know.

2010-02-28T09:53:00.000-08:00

you wouldn know.

super cute right, dun worry. its mine now.
WAHA. if only they got more colours. XD
i sure collect ALL. i want the whole set lik korkor one. )):
next time i take photos let u guys see!
mad cute,.

my dog love corner.
he keep trying t squeeze in the corner. -.-
lik owner lik dog.

mad pweettty. not mine tho. cycy. *wink*wink*
mind you. it cost more than $500. goshhhh.
some people 身在福中不知福. like super loh.
btw, the camera did no justice to this mad gorgeous earing.

the cute box! ((:

cycy, why not u just gimme the box.
cus i noe there is no way u will gimme the earing. LOL.

ok. the cny photo. lols. rmb thousand of posts ago. i mention gambling.
and W's cousin was lik "bai zhen"-ing. (摆阵ing)
this is the zhen(阵). LOL!
btw,zz, isit this zhen ah. i cnt find the other one lei.
looks wrong. bah!

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enough of photos. tml i got automation control paper.
GG-fied. i more scared of wed one. power E. tho.
automation control MORE impt. but then.
i more scared of the other one lei.
cus this one is more of theory. not so scary.
i scared i flunk it!
my A and B just kissed me goodbye. )):
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i wanna go clubbing on wed, thurs, fri, sat.
anyone going? gosh.
i forgot, none of my clubbing kaki got my link. -.-!
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i like this song alot! -untouched. credits: CY! ♥♥((:

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gotta be active in SU le. i wanna go camp! haha.
i wanan be OGL this time round! ((:((:
go meeting go trial camp also can!
JUST to be OGL.
ALL IN THE NAME OF OGL.
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happy third month.

we didn celebrate our third month.
he didn even rmb.
he thought we still two months.
i said its three.

then
he thought its ytd. cus he thought feb got 29th.

i know you wouldn call back.
dun ask, i just know..

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im reminded of sth.
sth a fren told me not too long ago.

"do whatever you want. just make sure, you wouldn regret it. "

i regretted. how abt you?

videos to share

2010-02-25T10:43:00.001-08:00

NN EP10 - Durian Dodgeball/Kiss Grandma

THIS IS FUNNY. LOL. ROFL.

2010-02-25T09:38:00.001-08:00

addicted.

2010-02-25T08:15:00.000-08:00

idiot boyfriend playing a fool with camou cream.
trying to entertain the girlfren. LOL. ROFL. LMAO.

some views of her look lik fiona!
but obviously. fiona's jugs are.. you know.
ALOT *ahmm.

i like the boots! DR marten!! im digging it!

i like her aura. LOL.

should i buy this for mommi?!
think she wear le also not nice loh. gees..

i like her tan line! should i go tanning!?!?
oh. i think this tube is kinda nice?
but lik. not nice. geees. i dunno!

boyfriend problem

2010-02-25T06:49:00.000-08:00

aye. im in abit of situation here. )):
i finally finished all my dresden files on hand.
7th. where are you!? im so gonnna find you..
right now. i should just concentrate on exams.
automation control eh?
i soooo gonna conquer u baby.
gimme a A baby, dun be stingy. or a B will do.
not gonna let u gimme a F boy.
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i swear i gonna hit the club before i go for my fyp.
best, the club music better be nice.
i must hav spray tooooooo much ck-be.
i keep smelling cherry smell.
which aren a good thing.
since..
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well. obviously. my situation here is boyfriend-girlfriend thingy.
who else can gimme headache?!
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started off with sth personal.
i suppose i asked toooo much questions.
and irritate someone.
cus as you can see here.
we girls aren suppose t ask toooo much questions.
cus we would put the oh-i-am-so-pressurised-that-sorta-mumbo-jumbo on them.
and yes, he was like having headache.
i suppose i could hav been a lil more sympathetic.
and add abit of the ingredient named- niceties into the blend.
i shouldn bomb those frivolous questions at him.
cus you see. by doing so.
i make myself appear lik a heartless,cold-blooded, void of feelings bitch.
i suppose im done with sarcasm.
well. of cus, i got pissed. so i shutup for awhile.
but curiousity got the better of me.
i started asking again.
3/4 questions more?
and boomboomfire. i got shot down.
blahblah. we argued. we quarrelled.
tho im not too sure is "quarrel" the right word.
nonetheless.
Tension in the air, both of us getting upset at each other.
and end off with playing some stupid game.
yeah, you got it. the well known. -mind game
he started asking some nonsensical questions.
which i had no way to know wwhat should i even say.
i tried my luck.
obviously, when people say bad luck comes in threes. you should believe them.
apparently, luck fail me.
i gave a wrong answer.
he came up with the wrong conclusion.
""question: i go reservoir.
answer: go loh.""
obviously, i died here. lost the battle.
got shot with lotsssss of bullets and arrows.
thank god, they aren silver bullets or fire/frost arrows.
but. fuck! tell me.
how can a question which seem so harmless be able to release arrows?
and LOTSA IT!
anyways! thennnnn. these happened.
he started mirroring everything i said.
for eg.
""K: what the fuck do you want now?
W: what the fuck do you think i want? ""
NOTE: this is EXAMPLE. i cant really rmb what we said ytd.
i mean. i cant rmb lik X to the MARK right?
ok. no dota terms here. zzzzzz.
soo. we cont like that for god knows how long.
well it definitely felt like hours to me.
and time went lik vrroomvroomzoom. we finally *snap*snap*
realised the conversation is going nowhere.
and both of us step back. (in a way) (or rather felt that way)
we ended the call. 5+am.
goshhh. and obviously.
your lady here. soooo capable of being pessimistic.
naturally. she said things like.
""K:oh, so now you want a break up?
W: this is you say one. ""
K: you said you cant feel anything!
W: i meant my headache. can you dun anyhow assume!?"" (LOLROFLLMAO!)
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goshh, i think i pretty much drove him crazy last night.
not like he didn.
we are on par. LOL.
more like.
we are like nemesis. -.-
we cant conquer each other.
but we drive each other crazy.
goshhh. i hate him.
seriously.
but he is lik some stupid drug.
some stupid cherry drug.
damn if i admit i love cherries.
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yes, and FYI. we are not okay yet.
i thought we are lik cold war-ing
apparently. i mentioned im suffering from pessimism.
and im lik in the final stage. the most jia lat one.
then he called. soo boohoo.. we not cold-war-ing. lols.
ok. ignore that boohoo comment. hahahaha.
but then. still. tension.
lik just waiting for some stupid sparks.
to spark everything back. geees...
sometimes. i wonder.
why would i want a stupid nemesis idiot piece of shiit to drive me crazy?!
cant i just get someone real dumb and slow that will pamper me lik some precious precioussy prissy princess. LOL.
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sometimes i wish i can unds u abit more.
just abit more.
sometimes i wish..
things didn happen.
but we all know.
face the reality yo!

Hmm.. Oh

Too much of anything can make you sick

Even the good can be a curse (curse)

Makes it hard to know which road to go down

Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better, is it worse

Always sitting in reverse

It's just like we're going backwards

I know where I want this to go

Try to go fast

But let's go slow

What I don't wanna do is crash, no

its not who can hurt you, its when ppl hurt you, you refuses to remove the bandage out of defense

2010-02-23T02:30:00.000-08:00

mmm. been drifting ard for months
in fact, more than a year yeah?
ever since that particular incident.
in my mind, all i wanna know and hav is to enjoy.
just e-n-j-o-y.
and, yes, i got lost in the midst of it.
back then, in my mind, there is only one purpose.
expand social circle, get back all my friends that i lost
indulge in things that didn seem as right by the others.
yes, time suddenly sped forward, things were going fast, life was awesome.
but, somehow, something is lacking somewhere.
every now and then, everything felt vapid.
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sometimes i asked myself, wtf m i doing.
wtf i want. and (*snap) i got distracted.
by yet another indulgement.
ppl came and went. things happened.
i regretted.
BUT luckily im smart enough to not let go of ppl that are tremendously impt t me. ((:
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during those moment, i did things according to what i want.
hurt someone. took some float i saw drifting around.
ruin a friendship which would be perfectly fine if i didn lost my sense then.
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i can see her doing it. the same thing i did back then.
trying all means to get up.
numbing oneself.
well, it took me long enough eh?
and yes, i can see you doing the exact same thing.
hah. the people that got lost in the midst of hurt and indulgement.
mix it up. u get the blend im trying to describe here.
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i dun deny that i enjoyed it.
mad enjoyed it.
infact i wanna cont enjoying it.
but, i hav recovered didn i?
from now, it should be an enjoyment rather than.
the excuse, that its a healing valve.
its a scar now.
a scar that reminds.
not a wound that hurt.
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im guilty. no matter whether m i at fault.
i didn know. so in a way.
iam deem as the innocent.
now. people who are hurting right now.
infact 9/10 ppl that hav access t my blog are busy healing themselves.
not that i gave 10 ppl access.
infact, i think. only 5 hav access. LOL!
ok. stop digressing.
people who aare hurting right now.
always believe in this.
everyone can live without someone.
everyone can be happy without THAT someone.
its hard. but its this particular one. that helped me walk out.
embrace this thought.
wad's yours will be yours. no matter wad.
i forgotten this in the midst of everything.
i forgotten this when i love too hard.
i forgotten this when i hurt too hard.
and i f regret.
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life is awesome now.
life is awesome for everyone.
as long as you know in your heart.
what makes you happy. what doesn make you happy.
and what lost the power to make you happy.
chunk those out of your life.
seek for what will make you smile again.
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it's time i look at that scar and be reminded of the pain.
allow the memory rush.
and not looking at it like im still hurting.
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time like this, i wanna a long bath. such indulgement should be indulge in more often. ((:

*in the midst of removing a bandage which has been kept far too long.

2010-02-22T13:37:00.000-08:00

this song is for you.

(shall not name who, you will know if you know)

i just feel it sorta describes what ya're always saying.

and hopefully this song will encourage you.

if u get the right meaning im trying t put across that's.

(ACCORDING TO YOU BY ORIANTHI)

According to you

I'm stupid,I'm useless,I can't do anything right.

According to youI'm difficult,hard to please,forever changing my mind.

I'm a mess in a dress,can't show up on time,even if it would save my life.

According to you.

But according to him

I'm beautiful,incredible,he can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny,irresistible,everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,

I don't feel like stopping it,so baby tell me what I got to lose.

He's into me for everything I'm not,

according to you.

According to you

I'm boring,I'm moody,you can't take me any place.

According to you

I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.

I'm the girl with the worst attention span;

you're the boy who puts up with that.

According to you.

But according to him

I'm beautiful,incredible,he can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny,irresistible,everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,I don't feel like stopping it,so baby tell me what I got to lose.

He's into me for everything I'm not,

according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,like I'm not hated. oh... no...

Why can't you see me through his eyes?

It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to me

you're stupid,you're useless,you can't do anything right.

But according to him

I'm beautiful,incredible,he can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny,irresistible,everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,I don't feel like stopping it,baby tell me what I got to lose.

He's into me for everything I'm not,according to you. (you, you)

According to you. (you, you)According to you

I'm stupid,I'm useless,I can't do anything right.

5.44AM le, i should really sleep! =S

busy days ahead

2010-02-22T13:02:00.000-08:00

#1

#2

#3

#4

#5

#6

#2,5,6 are my fave!
asked baby t help me choose.
obviously he chose #6. that bitch.
and obviously, #6 is my current blogskin.

anw, regarding the prev post.
uhmmm. dunno wanna blog abt it anot.
gimme a few days t mull over it. i'll get back t u. (laugh)
anw, it was just an misunderstanding.. mmmmm. m-i-s-t-a-k-e?
i certainly hope so!
cus if its the truth.
i hav just evolved from idiot to moron.
uhmmmm. ok a bit of wad happened.
LOL.
i saw sth like this.
--"The only place to retrieve back old memories... no one know the the truth.. i m so sorry.. it just hurts everytime ur name being mentioned"
and it spark off everything.
for more info.
either u wait, and see i will blog abt it anot.
OR, i'll say when i see you. lOL.
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its time t study. i've got two papers for march.
march 1, and march 3. well
atleast, thats wad the webbie show when i check a mth ago.
it better not change. if not. i=gg-fied.
ok. that reminds me. i should check again ltr.
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perfume list is almost ready, gotta double check the department store price.
well, i doubt i will be launching anytime soon. should be ard march bah.
will be busy with exams and whatnots.
not to mention.
i gonna teach tution! hahah.
tution, tek, exams, fyp. oh gees.
time management.
nvm, i believe i can cope.
all in the name of MONEY! waha.
so i guess, i will be in the north side pretty often?
fyp starting on march 8.
tution starting on march 4? which is lik at khatib. -.-
then baby stays at khatib?
now wad. khatib my second home?
NO WAY! third home.
tamp will always be my second home. ((: XOXO
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calendar t note:
-28feb
-1march**
-3march
-4march
-8march**
-27march
-31march
perfume

oh god, aid me in focusing on my studies.
it's more likely i will read my book!
jim butcher!
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ps:
oh, amanda, i forget tell u.
and i lazy sms u.
read jim butcher de book. darn nice.
abt magical stuffs de.
just lik the nora roberts de key trilogy. BUT, NICER!
meet up soon babe! ((: XOXO
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gotta start taking note of my gastric and back strain again. geees.

5.24am. off to bed. bye ppl. =S

2010-02-19T05:31:00.000-08:00

im a idiot.

to realise this late.

fuck you.

cold fury feels so much better than rage.

hide and seek fightstar

2010-02-19T04:39:00.001-08:00

quit playing games.

im mad tired.

i just wanna run.

away from all these.

away from all those question marks.

dun involved me in tug-o-love-war

i hav enough on my mind for now.

gotta be alone.

for just a lil while.

lemme sort things out.

on my own.

tho i would very much prefer t cuddle into someone arms right now.

it just isn possible.

cus u will only murk everything up.

cus u will only make me wanna pretend everything is oh-so-fine.

love create illusions.

i should hav known better.

love makes small thing seems huge.

and big things seem small.

it slow down ppl's reflexes.

play you like you are no more than just a fly.

in short.

it makes you s.t.u.p.i.d

it makes u unable be sensitive t things u should be.

it makes u do stupid stuffs.

it makes u over react in those minor things.

im gonna take a walk.

alone.

gotta clear my mind.

before i do more stupid brainless stuffs.

i'll be back soon.

BRB

JOKE OF THE DAY

2010-02-17T10:20:00.000-08:00

A professor of chemistry wanted to teach his 5th grade class a lesson about the evils of liquor,
so he produced an experiment that involved a glass of water, a glass of wine and two worms.

"Now, class. Observe closely the worms," said the professor putting a worm first into the water.
The worm in the water writhed about, happy as a worm in water could be.

The second worm, he put into the wine.
It writhed painfully, and quickly sank to the bottom, dead as a doornail.

"Now, what lesson can we derive from this experiment?" the professor asked.

Johnny, who naturally sits in back, raised his hand and wisely, responded,
"Drink wine and you won't get worms."

just some boring blogpost.

2010-02-17T08:36:00.000-08:00

in the end. it didn reach me loh! K**.
super dl. i wasted $28.50! ~!@#$%^&*(
i better reach me before sat. otherwise, im lik thinking of requesting for a refund. sighhh. best, my relative de relative wore the exact same piece in white on cny day 1!
almst burn right there.

vehveh sweet right. haha. see properly, its not me. LOL.

dammit. someone just reminded me. exams are coming.

doomsday reaching.

cus right aft exam, will be fyp.

meaning. if i wanna party/play hard.

gotta do it NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

but i think. even if i fyp.

i still will go club. LOL. =X

hard t kick luh.

im already controlling.

forever saying wanna go.

forever never go. zz!

my cny is totally cursed.

cus i always emo during cny. zz.

and its always either chu yi/chu er.

DOTs. .

yeahh. some boyfriend issue.

but its alright now.

and some idiot. even access my fb dee dee siao siao.

super de zai.

but i shalln reveal what THAT idiot actually do.

to... to.. *content deleted*

this year cny totally dunhav the qi fen.

lik super no cny feel.

no fweeling ahh~!

gambled. lost then won then lsot again.

uber sian. but end up lost $6 only. ((:

heh.

cny day 1 is uber screwed up.

mummy sotong. tot got gathering at toa payoh.

then we set off early.

end up. its on day 2. luckily we weren on our way t toa payoh.

then somemore. no openhouse this year.

19years of routine just break liktt.

parents both overseas.

leave me with a huge queen size bed t sleep.

a week of "own room" lol.

total weirdness. not used t it!

cny day 2. starting screwed up.

yes, boyfriend issue.

then after that become uber shyness.

then watch movie.

watched the lightning thief twice. LOL.

not that its uber uber nice. just.. urm. 3/5stars?

watched with his cousins thats why..

and saw melody!

she was uber cute.

she was lik testing water.

at there. shermie? shermaine? sher.. sherr... LOL.

then i turned. and she hello! haha. wad da.

cny day three.

lotsa laughter. lotsa money lost and won.

mind you, not my $.

his cousin is uber gayness in luck.

he won $400+ ok! not t mention. day two. he won 100/200+.

400+100=500++++

goshh, he is rich! NS pay lai lo! haha.

i took this pic. but lazy upload.

uber funny.

the bai zhen t win money but still lose 100+.

lol. so now we noe. when u dunno a thing abt fengshui.

no point!cus it wun work! hahaha. worth a try tho. LOL.

his cousins are damn funny. lols. super joker.

partyworlded after that.

its funny how baby cnt actually read too complicated chinese words.

and its funny how his eyebrow will raise at that word and pretending that he know.

and just mumble thru the song. LOL.

mad funny. damn. i enjoyed my cny day three.

haha. thanks baby. super turbo xoxo.

i needa go out tml. needa buy stufs.

anybody willing t accompany me!?

loll.

im officially attached. declared on fb. lik finally?

becus... becus... (....)

what shud i do for my bday this year.

shud i celebrate or shud i not?

no chalets definitely.

fyp how t chalet even.

unless book one night?

but i hav no confidence t escape the alcohol this year.

since. THEY* all know how i escaped last year liao. =S

ayee. think abt this sat better.

ps: can you please dun hide and emo?

come out. im here. hello?!

when im down, you were there.

when you are down, i wanna be there for you too.

comon, lets be fair. ((:

you will always be love(d) by kailing! XOXO

feb 20, i will not forget.

u are not forgotten.

just when i was guilty over not being there for you.

i realised. its just not needed. (NOT XX)

again. oh well.

i just hope its the right decision.

and this decision you made, makes you happy.

when will cny be awesomely nice for me?!

HAWTTTTT STUFFS.

2010-02-12T11:42:00.000-08:00

read this yo.

http://www.myfatpocket.com/gossips/forever-21-treats-their-employees-like-crap.html

haha. so.

X, now we know why forever21 is forever hiring?! HAHAHHA

lady gaga damn zai

http://www.myfatpocket.com/gossips/gagas-grammy-looks.html

i super agree

http://www.myfatpocket.com/love/10-things-celestina-tiew-looks-for-in-a-man.html

i should do my list too!

ok. for ppl who are attached.

and for ppl who are pretending they are virgins.

this is for you. LOL.

http://www.myfatpocket.com/love/what-men-really-want-sexually-that-is.html

http://www.blowtips.com/

fyi: fellatio means orgasm of the greatly praised penis. LOL.

so are you tempted?

get his book yo. michael webbs. LOL

iwannabewildagain!

2010-02-12T11:26:00.001-08:00

I WANNA DRINK.

I WANNA CLUB.

I WANNA GO CRAZY.

SOMEONE PEI ME KI SIAO PLEASE.

LETS DO STH WILD BABY!

I SHUD MEET THEM SOON.

LIK ZOOMZOOMVROOM.

THE WILD PEOPLE.

WHERE ARE YOU~!?

MAD MISS YOUSS.

RESTLESS.

BORED.

WHY?

CUS I HAVEN BEEN WILD THIS FEW MONTHS.

BISH.

LETS PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR THIS VALENTINES!

WAD IS CNY?! I CAN ONLY SEE THE CLUB BECKONING T ME!

any singles? onz?

call me anytime baby.

i sure steady one. HAHA.

i should start texting my clubbing kakis.

hopefully, they also onz.

dun gimme the lame excuse its cny. XD

randomness

2010-02-12T10:32:00.000-08:00

i saw this at someone blog! chio right. next time my bed i also want this kind. no bed frame de. f nice loh. just lik.

命中注定我爱你 that show. the rich guys bed. f nice. AWESOMELY NICE RIGHT?! haha.

this is wad i see aft stalking someone's fb. =X super super slack cat. haha.

i saw someone's fb.
someone i dunlik.
i saw her prof photo.
KAN DULAN.
she purposely one loh.
PUT TWO IMPT PPL in her prof.
wtf. iya. i also dunno why tdy. will bu xiao xin saw her prof.
see le nvm. still click go in. diaos.
fucking self torture.
but i didn know she go put ok.
bitch. bitch. bitch. see le really is kan dulan.
urghhh.
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fucking hungry. mad hungry.
seriously. i hate it. gastric juice raging.
everytime hungry. damn sian of it.
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i keep forgetting t buy eye serum.
mommy is abt t kill me. i've been dragging for more than one week? =X
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stood under HOT water for 15mins? water splashing right in my face.
fucking refreshing. fucking relaxing.
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too much things gg thru my mind.
too much things left unsaid.
too much things left in the mystery.
sigh sigh sigh.
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R cant find Matsushita Yuya's song for me. )):
i din noe he can dance. omg.
+20points!
i just fucking love guys who can dance. woots.
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went out with X tdy.
i told her t meet me at house of condom there.
mad funny. and when i was standing ard there.
i can feel ppl's stares.
of cus, i think im paranoid.
cus i didn stand at house of condom there.
but near there luh. hahah.
not so daring. i was alone lei! ltr some weird guy abduct me how?!
LOLL. ltr they think i chciken.
i cfm turn nasty.

they say when you dun expect.
u wun be disappointed.
but, when u dun hav any expectation.
it's lik vapidness.

topics to topics

2010-02-11T10:48:00.001-08:00

im not hardworking.
im just desperate for money.
im just desperate t meet my goals.
haha. *laughs
materialistic*
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i dun mind the hard work, i dun mind the effort.
as long as there is results.
as long as money start rolling in.
getting kinda anxious.
keep wondering. will there be response!?
what if, what if, all this will come to naught?
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sighh, there better be results.
seriously. i hav been doing the damn table.
and tml i gonna check out DFS and various department stores.
blahblah.
hope W and i can wake up tml.
since i gotta rush back for reunion dinner @ 7.
mommy keep reminding me.
i dun think she will forgive me if i screw up.
plus, it has been a long time since i see ama.
double sighh.
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well. somemore, im so gonna miss valentines!
will target market be smaller?
yes, definitely!
look wad sem proj has done t me!
profit margin, target market, breakeven, revenue. blahblah.
engine student take business module.
damn smart. really.
but i f-ing love it.
i should hav took business course loh.
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iya, blame it on myself man!
degree...! convert! convert!
marketting? accounting? business management?
iya. wadeva. can go in then say.
i got no confidence in this ground loh.
doubt any uni even want me. =X
blahh.
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bad day. really.
quarrelled with ama.
said things that i shudn say.
the moment it came out.
i f-ing regret.
im sorry ama.
sighh. i cnt apologise t her face t face.
dammit. i suck man.
why m i always so rash.
why do i ALWAYS say things and regret.
they say once bitten twice shy.
(i got bitten alot times. but i not shy at all!)
why cant i say sorry.
wad is pride. AHH~!
wadeva happened to my anger management?!
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i tot i had it curb.
til i "sorta unleashed" it tdy.
oh fuckk. hav t start right from the beginning again!
ka pui. kailing you suck.
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anw, baby bought me SD jacket. woots.
THAT jacket. yes yes. haha.
in BLACK somemore.
in XS somemore. woots. lovelove.
at first i tot.
TAY CN. u betray me! haha.
then baby keep saying. its not him.
its the SD guy.
better be loh.
haha. anw. uber thanks.
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my record of 4-5 years of consecutively receiving flowers on
VALENTINES DAY broke. )):
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anw, forget do "movie review".
14 blades, lightning thief.. mmm. not bad.
the su sth show. chinese show also not bad.
at least better than FONG YUN. lols.
is all fighting scene. so unless u like fighting scene. otherwise dun watch.
percy the lightning thief not so much fighting scenes. but sian. the "couple" nv la ji.
-10points! LOL..
14blades de graphic is nice. esp TUOTUO. woots. hot stuffs.
the SU sth show. that one ahh. the fighting is damn nice also.
but i kinda cringed at the violence.
i mean. literally. abit luh huh?
oh, i rmb, its called. SU QI ER-true legend.
for guys. i recommend! haha.
for closiess.. if u all lonely. call me. i pei ni watch.
provided u pay. since i watch liao. AHAH.
and since the show isn too bad, i dun mind a second time. ((:
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愛不單行. im totally digging it. ppl! go dl ok! or ask me send you via HP/COM! damn bloody nice. ((:

oh, but if u got some heart affairs. i mean. NASTY heart affairs. dun dl.
ltr cry not my fault yo~
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oh. and. lemme introduce you to the "NEW" flavour that bens and jerry just launched.
its called. the MANGO SOBER. and LEMON SOBER.
zai hoh? so now. the new word of the day is.
are u drunk or SORBET?
hello SU DA BING aka SU TIAO. haha. ((:
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so now u guys know wad is happening now?!
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a note to be noted:
my boyfriend doesn know when is my birthday.
woots! im lik suppose to do a bootie dance?!
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nightnight people. enough of sarcasm. ((:
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accio THAT melody. XOXO

~~ispeakwhenlistened.~~

~~ipromptwheninterested.~~

~~icontwhenprompted.~~

~~noneofaboveconditionikeepsilent.~~

random

2010-02-10T06:45:00.000-08:00

psyco mommy t buy two clothes for me from BC. since one of them oos.
and refund the money. so in actual fact. psyco mommy t buy one more for me.
yeshha. haha.
then i use my own ac trf for ONE dress.

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and please.
hav some pity in me.
cny quickly come! so many blogshop now chionging to launch new clothes cus of cny.
once cny. alot BS gonna hibernate. haha.
then i'll be safe. ((:

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so now. im left with f21(3) to collect from xe.
rwb(2).
BC rach(1)
BC velda(1)
BC viola(1)
room290(1)

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please those in red. all reach me asap by cny. i cant wait man!
the not in red also quickly reach me i wanna wear u! haha.

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im broke. )):

work.work.work.

random

2010-02-09T10:55:00.000-08:00

woots. BC rach is uber nice!
i just emailed her. told her. im afraid that THAT top (which both amanda and jes like)
might not reach me in time.
u noe what she reply me?
she asked me t email her again on thurs if i still nv receive.
then she see got extra pieces not.
then will meet me t pass me
woots.
uber thumbs up! ((:

BC IS LOVESS((:

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had a talk with R. think we are back t normal now. ((:

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oh, and he got me down! and this new alicia keys song. AHAH.
and the dogs yelling song. well. thats wad he claim. HAHA.

zz, may i noe who sang frozen. i cnt find the artist!
how t ask ppl dl for me sia!?
ask u send me u nv send. slap u.

a piece of my mind/heart

2010-02-09T09:41:00.000-08:00

urghh. blogger pics uploading seriously suck ****.
i shud stop my suck **** thingy.
super vulgar. =X
and wilson is countering me with i suck **. ZZZ!
damn gross.
ok. move on.

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im abt t spend 103.50 if i were t buy all that i want in that prev post.
ok. that seriously suck.
here is the "plan".
either i buy. and wait for another month or two before i can get my "bag"
or. i can always wait and combine with my hong pau.
and get my "bag"
so. its lik bag or shopping.
a dilemma kinda thingy. screw the spelling.
im tired after uploading sooo many photos.

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oh. me and olivia broke up. )):
we ended our fb r/s.
cus i needa declare my r/s with mr wilson le. =S
but not gonna declare now.
lest some fuckers think that either one of us are fucking despos.
get attached right before V day.
but... what they know!?
and i cnt exactly put. we got attached on 281109 right?!
that will be ridiculous. and over reacting? haha. wadeva.
so. t prevent much trouble. and seal those mofo's mouth up.
declare aft V day.
and i can just say.
OH, he chu stunt on V day. i got touched. we gt tgt.
which is rubbish.
but they dunhav t noe isn it. =X
BITCHINESS~~

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my last 24hrs. one word. FAB.
not till the extend of ULT. but yes FAB. haha.
after THAT emo night.
i think i kinda deserve it. hah.
as in i deserve the fab thingy.
not the emo night ok!
sighh. perhaps its good i actually told him.
but i feel so vulnerable now.
lik a emotional door of mine had just opened.
and i cnt seem t close it. if not will jam him. )):

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i still got a prob with opening up. =X
anw. he also hav! so fair and square. =D
anw, im fine with our current situation.
sooo. lets hope it stay this way bahh. ((:
cheers*

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i cant wait for hong pau!
more more more hong pau please!!!
老娘没钱了!
baby, i hope u really lik the belt.
tho i would much prefer the round one. =S

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spring clean part II tml.
just the thought of it. i feel tired liao. =S
im still deciding. whether should i buy the clothes. sighhh.
the more i think. the longer i drag.
the highER chance it will get oos.
sometimes its good.
but sometimes i regret! cus i really like the piece.
but come t think of it.
luckily i didn buy that SD jacket.
hard t pei sia. im always wearing dress!
that sd vest that went oos suit me much more.
oh well. no fate ah!

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i want my skin t quickly recover!
its recovering. getting better and better.
but can u lik vrrroooom vrrroom recover before cny?
or at least before my bday!
i waited a year! i wanna submit my application!
quick quick.
f21(3), rwb(3), bc(1). quickly postman. deliver it t my place!
ubi ave 1!! i wanna wear for cny. i waited for a month liao! zzz.
cny. u better be good this year.
this year, mommy and daddy not with me.
please lemme enjoy the cny.

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suddenly, felt old. maybe becus daddy mommy no longer care abt staying home.
maybe cus this family is really falling apart.
maybe becus bigbro left.
sometimes its good, cus i feel more free.
but, sth felt amiss.
at times, i dunwan second bro's flat t be ready.
cus, i would be left all alone.
mommy not staying home.
daddy not even in sg.
luckily. im no longer young.
or maybe. suayness.
if im still young, daddy mommy will prolly stay tight tgt.
all for my sake. )):

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nonetheless.
i still hav xxzz, cy. and W! that should suffice.
it hav t suffice!
sometimes. i really feel. xx is closer t me than my family.
sigh.
xx, when are u gonna text/call me t ask me out?
u really wanna wait for me t text/call you each and every time?
or. its the same old thing again.
im too "busy" for you?
sometimes, u are simply too zi dong.
and i dunlik it!

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wellwellwell. nights ppl.
who wanna buy perfume?!
get from me. haha. i got NICE discount. ANY PERFUME. man/woman. ((:

peektures. ((:

2010-02-09T09:12:00.000-08:00

tidy ba? haha.

my collagen drink! thanks mom! ❤

mom bought $298 dollars worth of fancl stuffs for me!

super turbo uber love! ((: ❤❤

but she only bought it at $198. woots.

oh the offer is o.v.e.r. haha. plus u need member card. XD

it has been too long since i camwhore.

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i decided t try step on leggings. plum somemore.

love((:

u see his jiao bin. cnt take it. super super ai yan. zzz

weiqi bestfren. totally.

baby, i edit the photo le hoh. be thankful! haha. XD

im not quite done with my camwhore.

actually got more. but i forget upload. next time. vn.nv

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camwhoring at tek. my camera suck ****.

2MP nia. omg. april quickly come! )):

hello baby! ((:

sigh, even my old se phot editor also better loh! )):

this is my current screensaver also my desktop pic! haha.

lik this the most. XDXD

shopping

2010-02-09T08:34:00.000-08:00

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i really is damn smart. i missed the BO. swee. save $$

i wanted t get this for cny. but the more i see.

the more ugly i feel. =S anw, its OOS le. lols

this nice mah? for cny. LOL. super excuse. =S

不能握的手

2010-02-07T09:27:00.000-08:00

maybe i knew all along.

maybe i was deceiving myself.

maybe its just all maybe.

im stuck in the memories.

bring me to the present yo.

not feeling too good.

felt useless.

perhaps. i aren useless.

just not the right one.

haha.

cheer up kailing. ((:

只有失去的温柔最温柔

in your eyes

2010-02-07T09:22:00.000-08:00

你问我你眼中我看到甚麽

我回答隐形眼镜还有一个帅到翻的我

我问你你眼中你爱我甚麽

你总是钓我胃口故作神秘爱说不说

男生都这样爱耍坏

行为举止挑战我的忍耐

女生才是有够奇怪

心里永远那麽多why

in your eyes 发现一种东西叫爱

因为爱所以我存在

in your eyes 看见生活多麽精彩

看着你我神眼离不开早被你打败

其实你悄悄变成我的最爱

my love is for you

吃醋撒娇生气耍赖是你的专利让你来

疼我爱我让我喂我这些小事情让你来

只要让我(你)愉快就算耍冷下不了台

我全都愿意都是因为爱

我问你你眼中透漏些甚麽

你笑着保持沉默让我期待你的承诺

请闭上眼睛

坏蛋你想做甚麽

哪有做甚麽

你的小计谋才不可能骗到我

oh 你的眼睛也累了该休息一下

就让我趁这个机会靠近你吻你一下

in your eyes 发现一种东西叫爱

因为爱所以我们存在

in your eyes 看见生活多麽精彩

因为有你才会精彩

看着你我神眼离不开早被你打败

其实你悄悄变成我的最爱

my love is for you

2010-02-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

找不到人说心里的寂寞

找不到人懂怕黑的折磨

找不到命中注定在一起的那个人

很多人都像我一个人过生活

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂

恨安定爱变化

我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍

却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信

它不是独行侠

我在等一个人在等我的永恒告

诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由

开始怕孤单是一种诅咒

羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后

还是宁愿回到爱情那个枷锁

我在等一个人在等我的永恒

告诉我爱不单行相信它

~~did u realise there is someone right here, with you.~~

~~instead of the one back there.~~

another shopping day

2010-02-06T08:32:00.000-08:00

wilson is a ~~fucker.~~
seriously.
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anw. ytd. is really damn fun.
kenrick go bring bak kwa. really super turbo funny.
cus he smart until go put the bak kwa inside marmite candy box.
and. there is this thing abt the pew pew pew.
we kept vandalising. =D
and the stupid accent.
and his. i angry le ok! haha.
mad fun.
mad laughters.
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and abt karyn's theory of take pic must take blur one den chio.
LOL. and the guys wwere lik rofl-ing.
and said this. NOW we know why fb de girls look so chio.
cus they took blur photo.
wle. spoil market sia. LOL..
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tdy. sighh.
i saw sd jacket. super sian.
didn buy. and best thing is.
its the last piece. super de good loh. kao.
even more chio that the leather jacket u noe!?
damndamndamn.
super sian.
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no $ really is uber sians.
super lotsa stufs cnt buy.
im further and further away from my wants.
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im liking that shop more and more. ((:
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mummy bought me fancl stufs! happy. ((:
if only... only....

fun day.

2010-02-05T10:46:00.000-08:00

enjoy~ this is kenrick bak kwa. mad funny.

tdy, damn fun.

super turbo fun...!

haha. aft sch go home nap. uber tired.

then go out lohh.

went shopping again. super zzz.

pei ppl shop. end up i bought two "dress/top" from pull and bear.

ZZZ! totally. (...)

oh. and i saw someone.

and.. wahha. YESHHHA. lol.

shalln say here. XPXP

blog next time. uber lots t say. but. cnt focus now.

WSBRKL

2010-02-04T09:34:00.000-08:00

你是我身体里的时钟

甚黱时候都让我感动

你撑我撑的伞吹我吹的风

有了你整个世界都不同

与你跨过生命的时空

全世界的钟吵吵闹闹吵闹都没用

跟你抱著过跟你看著时间流动

我们分不开时间来证明我们相爱

((你是我身体里的时钟 甚黱时候都让我感动))

shopping without money suck.

2010-02-04T08:53:00.000-08:00

i hav a very bad feeling.
lik a omen or sth.
i dunno. is sth bad coming my way?
oh shiit. hate this feeling.
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anw. tdy uber tired.
total rush hour man.
woke up. after hanging up with W.
rush t bath. prepare. lunch.
rush for cab.
rush to sch for the stupid test.
the moment i reach. teacher say. left ten mins t do the quiz.
holy shiit. quickly hurried t settle down.
do the damn quiz.
after that. rush over t another quiz area.
from there. rush ovver toilet. do the neccessary make up t go town.
hurried over to town. met cy.
aft dat. supposely, needa rush over t meet karyn.
but didn. totally tired. dun feel lik running all over already.
she asked me go katong. she said timbre close.
then nv even call me when she was still at timbre.. -.-
when waiting for bus t go katong then call me.
i also sian. i lazy rush over t dhoby find them.
i was lik at taka. and they already at the bus stop waiting for bus.
im lik suppose t fly there? eeeew.
had enough of running all over places.
plus they also dunno want eat wad at katong. -.-
and i got no $$ t pay for cake and present. LOL.
abit ps also. =S
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pop over zara. shopped with some rich kid.
crazy fellow.
he at first say go there buy his leather jacket.
then we reach there, he saw this shoes.(no more new pair)(phew)
then. he saw this jeans.
then he saw another shoes. but too small. (phew again)
then he saw yet another shoes.
eh? this is zara. not pasar malam lei.
omg. if he manage t buy all. it shud be $470.
end up think he spend $300+
goodness gracious.
all becus of this idiot fault.
i spot a mad chio leather jacket.
dammit. $129.90. oh my tian.
bitch. but i didn buy.
no $$. totally. zzz.
then. go over cineleisure.
get mvie tix. shun bian go leftfoot.
damn. i saw another dress.
$45.90. its lik crochet and eyelet/lace design. mad chio. but i didn try.
hear the price wanna faint le. if i try on. and i fall in love with it even more.
i think i may just walk off with that dress on. lols.
i swear i didn go in the shop or wad.
i.. i just happened t walk past.
and it was on the mannequin.
and im used t my eyes drifting all ard when im "shopping"
its lik a "survivor instinct kinda thing"
its built in. damn.
i shud hav kept my eyes to where im walking.
look left loook right for wad!
kns.
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sigh* being broke suck.
i get my pay and dun get my pay.
lik no diff. wtf.
sometimes i really think.
shops lik zara and topshop are so over priced loh. zz
zara not so bad. cus at least some of the materials is can make it.
oh well.
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tml will be a sian day.
go sch for pathetic three hours.
sit there see ppl fiddling with FPWINPRO.
then. oh, go home.
wait... wait... wait...
tick tock tick tock. oh. 430 liao.
get ready t go for some ouch ouch stufs.
sighhh.
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at least. exams are almost over.
or rather, just the quiz. left with one more.
mon. then im officially off on my study break.
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dammit. vgy says. its pending.
bc still haven cfm with me. i also scared too small.
sigh sigh sigh.
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ah! we forgot to take the brown eyes! dammit.
i forgot. i bet u rmb right. just dunwan t remind me. kns.
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im tired.
but im waiting for sth.
sigh, got this feeling. it wun come.
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no mood t blog. im blabbering! BB.

hptx

2010-02-03T11:01:00.000-08:00

hahah. im getting songs in my own.
can u believe it?
even mfl also agree with me.
nv hear me get myself one.
i got the WHOLE of hptx ost NOW. woots.
in my shuffle. in my phone. in my com. woots.
i think amanda will korp from me. got this feeling.
or maybe jes will korp.
i just got this feeling.
one or MORE of my gf will korp music from me. lols.

lai lai lai. korp from me.
which ost u want. lols.
im kinda certain i got all. if dunhav. i go get!
hahah.

bloghopping

2010-02-03T10:04:00.000-08:00

i was bloghopping. and i saw this.

"And when a girl doesn't want to give you her number, she's not interested! Getting her number with the intention of pestering her, isn't going to do you any favours. So just leave it! "

yeahyeah. i agree! i agree! some boys just dun get it. -.-

***

oh. im capable of murdering someone now.
dun worry. i dun murder any tom dick harry at random.
only interested in wilson su bing ru!
yes. that punk. i wanna murder him.
he blufff me.
AGAIN! bitch.
9+ u say will call me back.
u promise t tell me sth sth de.
bitch. bitch. bitch.
2.06 le. stupid bitch
i hate you!
i gonna curse u.
curse that..
urm. urm. urm. shhiit.
what kinda curse is harmless.
errr. errr. lemme think. gimme a sec here.
i hope that ur mum will nag u till u faint?
oh man that suck.
ok. a better one.
i hope. u will ALWAYS be alone during duty.
so dat u will be bore t hell.
yes. ALWAYS alone in guardroom. ALWAYS alone during duty
and i pray hard i would be busy.
u cant call me.
and i pray even harder. all ur phone got flat. and ur freaking batt charger doesn work.
best. i hope im overseas. then i wudn noe a thing. and wudn try t contact u.
ahh. best. i hope this curse work.
waha.

***

boy, u dunwanna make me flip.
im serious.

baby you're my sugar rush.

2010-02-03T09:05:00.000-08:00

I get a high whenever you're around

Sweeping from my head to my toes

I gotta get my feet back on the ground

Cuz you make me go out of my way

Crossing the line making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited

And I don't wanna fight it

I start to blush

You are my Sugar Rush

Ain't nothing better baby

Is it for real or maybe?

I start to blush

You are my Sugar Rush

I got a sweet tooth and a taste for you

It might me too obvious but

I can't help my self from what I do

Cuz you make me go out of my way

Crossing the line

Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited

And I don't wanna fight it

I start to blush

You are my Sugar Rush

Ain't nothing better baby

Is it for real or maybe?

I start to blush

You are my Sugar Rush

Baby you're my Sugar Rush

I get weak and talk too much

You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted

Baby you're my Sugar Rush

I get weak and talk too much

Cuz you make me go out of my way

Crossing the line

Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited

And I don't wanna fight it

I start to blush

You are my Sugar Rush

Ain't nothing better baby

Is it for real or maybe?

I start to blush

You are my Sugar Rush

Baby you're my Sugar Rush

I get weak and talk too much

You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted

Baby you're my Sugar Rush

I get weak and talk too much

You are my Sugar Rush

***

idunwannafightitanymore.

kailing is in super turbo good mood!

2010-02-03T08:23:00.000-08:00

lol. i just did the stupid valentine thingy for fb.
ok. yes, again! but its a diff one ok.
and it seems fun.
end up. the result it gave me is really funny.
jeslin and weiqi both in my list.
i was lik wtf? lol! both top 10 somemore.
jes #1. wq #6.
so im lik suppose t date both? omg.
think i will get a slap and a punch man!

***

baby was lik #11. lols. so sad. almost make it to 10 lei. =D

***

went out t shop for W's mama bday gift.
zzz. it has been a long time since i do such thing.
omg. totally. rusty.
i feel uber bad t him.
things i did for J. it came so easily to me.
after stopping it for. urm? two years? im totally rusty.
goshh. i ill treating W!

***

YESHHHHAAA! i manage t psyco jeslin t on her com back
woots. kudos to me please.
tyty~ ^^

***

ok. back t topic. ok luh. i think i abit ill treat him.
i already ill treat B. shudn ill treat W. right?!
haha. baby, i shall be nicer t you.
provided. u go out with ME! and NOT your hp!
rawwwrrr!
eh, u noe wad. this idiot damn smart.
go out with me, whole day see phone. see the stupid soccer thing.
ya ya ya. exclusive. i MORE exclusive okay! bish!
ok. complain finish. haha.

so tdy was lik suppose t buy his mama present.
then i realise. i got no money. how t buy.
*smacks.
i really damn smart.
must be cus of the headache.
dunno isit got some stupid tumor lying inside my brain's nerve.
keep having headache. zzz.
forced t eat panadol.
cus its really killing me.
killing my mood. damn..
hav t pop gastric pill along with it.
t prevent the stupid panadol giving me gastric. dammit.
damn ma fan loh.

***

oh, i not gonna buy that lacey pumps le. since i got my heels tdy.
unless. some kind soul getting it for me luh.
internet trf ok!
i giv u the webbie.
u trf the seller money via ibank ok?!
address put my address.
ubi ave 1, blk 3xx
eh? then wun tell u.
sms me aft u trf! then i giv u my address. LOL.

***

shopping make my mood better sia. woots.
i can jump ard now.
tho i cant buy.
but i enjoy seeing pretty things.
woots.woots. ^^
super turbo happy.
i will be super turbo macho happy
IF someone buy all of the above and other clothes i upload in my blog for me! TYTY.
oh. dun forget THAT cute melody! =D
i hope this year cny hong bao be FAT FAT.
woots. then i can buy my burberry bag.
woots. ^^
im dreaming. X_X

shopping again

2010-02-03T07:48:00.000-08:00

HOW!? i really like the white one super lots.
but i cant own it. dammit. no money. damm damm damm. even the yellow one is damn chio luh. fuck.

tricia's site. omg. this top on top spells S-E-X-Y. =/

jeslin kinda thing. but i think i also quite like it sia. oh shiit. animal prints? OH NO?!

sighh*

oh. i actually wanna buy these shoes de. for that qipao.

yes. for this qipao. the seller is still trying t squeeze one out for me.

while she is at that. i wonder. if above goes OOS. shud i get these?

comparing with BC. shud i get AE(above) or this. i think AE this time own BC right?!

wad do u think again? BC or AE? lols. AE is this. BC is above.

***

i just text jeslin regarding the leopard prints thingy. think she will like it.

then she say she no $$. i also no $$.

dammit. must i really ask W for it?

oh shiit. i nv do this kinda thing before.

did i? dun rmb.

ok. lets use. i SELDOM do such thing. (on the safe side)

since they always say never use "never". oh well.

this is new t me. uber new.

urghhhh.

***

i want that melody! i want! i want!

just spam only

2010-02-02T10:49:00.000-08:00

CT tml.

im gg-fied.

i dun wish for more.

just a pass.

fuck gpa.

fuck university.

i wanna pretend im not worried abt it.

i wanna pretend university doesn mean a shiit t me.

i wanna pretend im 8years old and still dunno how t think for my own well-being.

oh crap.

sob.

*pray and hope*

i can wake up early tml t study.

someone call me at 11? tyty.

how to buy all of these with lousy pay?

2010-02-02T09:24:00.000-08:00

top secrets with gf.

2010-02-02T09:01:00.000-08:00

super hilarious.
me and gf are lik msning
some top secret stufs.
anw. the main topic is just
boyfriend. LOL.
we keep complaining
of cus i got more t complain.
DUH.
then she was lik. OH? he din die?
then follow by me saying the same thing. hahah.
we are so fucking similar in terms of such stufs.
shopping. handling bf. fucking the same.
omg. lik imprint.

***

maybe im a gemini in disguise.
OR. she is a aries in disguise. woots.
tho i think gemini would be better.
sine this horoscope is two twin in one?
aries only got one ram. so abit bo link. lols.

***

i didn noe i got soooooo much t say sia.
til i just land the bomb on her.
i was lik wow. zai-ness.

***

common test tml. its lik the "final paper" for this module
i didn study at all. didn intend t study.
dun hav the fucking mood t study.

***

guys are losers really.
when they do wrong things.
they giv stupid excuses. faint.
the pros and cons that come in the package- BOYFRIEND.
urghhhh.

***

aye. i love loyloy luhh. best
he doesn gimme prob.
iloveyoumuchmuchiiessmuchs. ♥♥
hugsandkisses. xoxoxoxo.

***

oh. do u noe i saw the qipao tdy again! at 69 bucks instead..
and jes say. she saw at 45 at ecp.
i got this chong dong to go exp t check it out.
then i rmb.
my pay this mth aren much.
and im abt t eat air alr.

***

damm. damm. damm. i miss ppl.
cmy! when u wanna meet me!?!?!?
or im lik suppose t go yishun camp outside ur hse lei?
i wanna meet ppl like. karyn, chongyan, glenn, james, cheris, cmy, amanda, jason, eugene, shaoyu, carlos, jeslin, bl, yj, zr, and many many more.
urgghh, miss miss miss.
miss all the gathering.
can someone go organise?! lols..

***

who.

what.

when.

where.

how.

im in the mood to overkill.

2010-02-01T09:31:00.000-08:00

either cherry boy super got attitude.

and is showing me some part of it.

or he fall asleep.

if he fall asleep.

he shall die(not literally).

dammit.

make me wait so long.

and i din wait in peace can!?

***

should i fucking get some sleep?!

yes i think i should.

t prevent my temper rising even further.

i should sleep.

lik NOW.

***

yomama here is in the mood to overkill...!

bloghopping

2010-02-01T08:38:00.000-08:00

SIAN! she got the "qipao" i wanted from kai!

fuck. $89.90. oh my tian.

oh. its the white one.

mad chio. mad short but mad love.

anw. some eye candies for u guys.

since they are lik models? i suppose its the guys kinda taste.

soothing t ur taste bud?

***

i don’t want him to be perfect. i just want him to laugh at me, trip me and then help me back up. i want him to run at me, pick me up and then just throw me into the pool. i want him to make me watch football for hours and listen to all of his terrible music. then i want him to take me to a movie he’s already seen and cover my eyes through the scary parts. i want him to beat me at games, and call me names… basically, i just want him to love me - LITTLETEASPOON

sounds very romantic uh? but please dun make me watch football. i will cry. LOL.

dunwan the tripping part also, no throwing me into the pool too. lol.

a lil upset. why the change?

2010-02-01T07:52:00.001-08:00

can someone tell me.

how t tell if someone is true t u anot.

rebound? yes? no?

***

i hate talking to you. (NOT w)

i dun own u money.

zzz. sound familar t me.

W just told me this ytd.

wtf. ok. so i quoted. fine.

***

if i take that one step forward.
would u cherish me.

would you love me more than every yesterday?

dun just promise, do it.

prove it.

❤

hptx

2010-02-01T06:23:00.000-08:00

***

finally hptx ended! well. the show was oooookay?

since the amnesia part wasn too long. just one epi.

but a lil cliche bah.

i super lik the heart shape effect. mad pweety. haha.

W, mayb we should try ahh. go get photoshop!

***

someone is pissed at me. zz.

upset

2010-01-31T01:10:00.000-08:00

upset.

fuming.

till i heard obsessed.

lets dance.

youtubeing

2010-01-30T10:30:00.001-08:00

にならなくて

dun this sounds like 下雨天?

im youtubeing and blog hopping.

random*

i wanna vrooomvrrooom go resortworld.

W, i wanna go resortworld..

W, i wanna go resortworld...!

W, i say i wanna go resortworld!

the only victoria's secrets in sg is at resortworld!

but universal studio haven open.

its coming soon!! wahha.

got rollercoaster and some 4d movie kinda shiit.

oh man. cant wait! cant wait!

(jic) someone k siao.

I WANNA GO RESORTWORLD.

BRING ME BEFORE I ZHAO SAI("run away").

ok. i think this will do. XDXD *satisfied grin

did some lil lil changes to the skin. XP

idunwanalickmyownwoundbymyselfagain

2010-01-30T08:00:00.000-08:00

i noe wad is the prob.

i noe mostly. it lies on me.

i noe i shouldn be doing these.

i noe i should try harder.

i noe if i cont like that.

we wouldn be able t work things out.

i noe.

but i cant.

i cant.

i just cant.

***

i cant believe again.

i cant depend again.

i cant give again.

i cant receive.

i dunwant to risk it.

***

im afraid.

im running.

running away.

from you.

from facts.

from all the shoulda coulda woulda.

***

i dunwanna heal the wounds.

afraid that once i try t heal it.

i would forget.

and repeat all the mistakes i did once.

afraid that once im not careful.

things/people will leave me.

leaving me behind.

those moments.

never again.

never.

***

phobia of the past.

haunting from the memories.

ramblings. foul mood.

2010-01-30T07:49:00.000-08:00

uber not in good mood. super turbo bad mood.
quarrel. quarrel. arguement. arguement.
will it ever stop?
f-ed up.
wadeva

hate it. bro took away the paintbrush.
mum dunwan help me find.
then my room how. i already painted halfway le lei.
wtfwtfwtf.
and when it come down t it.
its my fault. cus i went clubbing ytd.
fucking aren worth.
one clubbing session.
i quarreled with W.
one clubbing session.
the painting thingy f up.
and bro and mum are just gonna say. who ask u went clubbing ytd.
nv alias properly.
dammit man.
seriously. what is there t alias luh.
how the fuck i noe. bro brought the thing over t woodlands.
in the first place. he shud return it if he borrowed. no?
fuck.

why the hell i forget the very first reason i refused?
whywhywhywhy.
fucking nubcake.

now i gotta chiong out my stupid sem proj report.
for my most irritating partner ever
if not for this irritating proj.
i would hav gone out.
perhaps even clubbing. if i...

xxzz

2010-01-30T07:17:00.000-08:00

xxzz

i noe you(s) are reluctant t help. becus. you(s )feel. i should start to.

perhaps, handle it on my own.

but why you never stop t think what is it that i want.

instead of telling me i should this and that.

why cnt i hav both.

why must i hav only one.

i rather giv up than lose.

if i must lose my frens cus of this.

i rather not hav.

i rather not.

dun make me choose. dun..

worse come t worst. i will giv up all.

***

rather than keep being throw all over. just becus becus.

if im sucha burden. then leave me alone. dun throw me to him.

just becus he is of diff status. it doesn mean i must lose my frens.

perhaps. you(s) are afraid that you(s) will hamper.

but u aren me.

***

u didn go thru what is called pain and all alone.

u din go thru wad is called abandon by bffs and gfs and goodfrens.

perhaps one of you(s) are going thru it now.

if so. shudn u be able t unds why m i so stubborn on this point?!?!

i dunwant t go thru that darkest moment again.

i dunwant i dunwant i dunwant.

***

maybe i fell. maybe i stood up again.

but that wound was never healed.

maybe i want that wound t remind me.

not t do the same mistake again.

***

why cnt it be the same.

just like when i was at status quo?

perhaps. not exactly same.

but it shudn be like this.

i shudn be thrown t him liktt.

i shudn.

i hav my choices too.

i do..

i want my life balanced.

***

i dunwan t stupidly believe what i used t believe again.

i dunwanna giv up ppl who are impt t me ever again.

i dunwan go thru those dark moment ever again.

dontwant...

***

kailing is no longer the old kailing.

i dun live for one only.

no longer.

and hopefully.

never ever again.

***

u need water, air and food t live.

dun just gimme air.

i need my water and food too.

do you(s) unds?

all are impt t me.

i need all.

hptx

2010-01-28T11:01:00.000-08:00

the more i watch hptx.
the more buay song i get.
isn this the last epi? kns.
why drag until ep 14!?!?

i tot can see them finally get married and stufs.
jes send me the photo. i see the photo.
uber zai. lols. nvm. i add a heart there le.
that dau uber nt photogenic. )):
bad day. )):

i should sleep. 9am class. its 3am now.
wad m i doing!?!?
and i haven even study FTT.
super zai at doing all the not impt stufs. =X

im getting bored of it. lik super.
NEXT~
the fb valentine thingy is kinda fun.
becus becus. ^^
bootie dance*

xx

2010-01-28T07:29:00.000-08:00

zomg.

ilovexxmuchmuchmuchiess.

lovelovelove((:

he got me obsessed..

i mean, he got me the song obsessed. LOL

peektures and songs

2010-01-28T05:46:00.000-08:00

Love is like a "question mark" having found it's other half; which has every answer to it's question ♥

this is quoted. im not so romantic. LOL.

is there really red calla lily?!
i want! i want!

so pweety. ((:

introducing eustoma. ((:

i saw this at someone blog. i was lik wtfwtfwtf. isn that jie ken! omg. ((:

haha. i must be crazy. posting so many calla lilies on my blog.
and eustoma! lovelove. ((:

so, w.. u noe wad t get le right. LOL.
u can always contact zz.
psyco/browbeat him t pass u his contact for last min calla lily order. LOL.
anw, stil got 2weeks. u can enjoy ordering calla lily. ((:

im trying my very best t fight my latest addiction.

or rather quite some time addiction: impossible by shontelle.

becus it reminds me of yp. and i feel lesbian-fied. lols.

impossible by shontelle.

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake

I was careless, I forgot

I did

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worst

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love is worst

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know

And know when all is gone

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible!

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did...

addicted by stevie hoang

my all time fave song other than pretty boy. ((:

hello zz. ((:

Since you went away

It's been

One year two months

But it just don't seem like yesterday

We were, we were still together

Time has passed and things have changed so

Why do I feel this way

Cause you're with somebody else

And I'm with somebody else but

Whenever I think about the love we had(It hurts so bad)

Whenever I think about the love we made

I said that I'd be strong

Girl I really thought that I'd move on

But still I find myself asking

[Chorus:]

Do you still think of me

Like I think about you

Do you still dream of me

Cause I can't sleep without you

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

{When I'm with a chick and we make love I call your name}

Said I don't know

{Wanna be with somebody else I push them away}

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but

I'm so addicted to you(You)

It's been long enough

Don't know

Why I'm still holding on

If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time

Cause you don't know what you've got until it's gone (until it's gone)

That's the reason why I'm writing you this song

Girl I'm slippin'

And I don't know what to do

Girl I admit it

I'm sick over you

DamnI realize my mistake

My pride got in the way

I shoulda begged you to stay

If you ever lost someone you truly love

Let me hear you say "yeah"(Yeah)Say "yeah"(yeah) Let me hear you say

And if you ever lost someone you truly need

Let me hear you say "yeah"(Yeah)Say "yeah"(Yeah)

[Chorus:]Do you still think of me

Like I think about you

Do you still dream of me (yeah)

Cause I can't sleep without you

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same (Why do I feel)

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

{When I'm with a chick and we make love I call your name}

Said I don't know

{Wanna be with somebody else I push them away}

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but

I'm so addicted to you

Like I think about you

Do you still dream of me

Cause I can't sleep without you

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted (it's got me addicted)

Said I don't know

When I'm with a chick and we make love I call your name

Said I don't know

Wanna be with somebody else I push them away (I just push them away)

Tell me if time should make a change (Make a change)

Then why do I feel the same (Feel the same)

I know I gotta move on but

I'm so addicted to you

and this song will remind me of missing me

missing me

hello zzbb.

I love the way it feels when you touch my hand

Don't wanna let you go

I love the way you say that I am your man

Don't understand why we can't go on and go on

Don't understand why

You don't belong in my arms

Ohh

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go

I just don't understand

It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow

The memories of you here with me by my side

I can't deny that you are the love of my life

Ohh

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

And I still cry for you

And I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

And I still long for you

And I was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

I still cry for you

I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

I still long for you

I was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

I still cry for you

I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

I still long for you

I was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

~~who got this song? mariah carey-obsessed. i want i want!~~

actually still got alot songs i wannt put here. but i lazy get lyrics le.

note: these are all time faves

i'll remember you-no secrets. hello zz.

addicted-stevie hoang. hello zz

missing me- rj helton. hello zzbb.

pretty boy-m2m. hello xx.

we belong together-mariah carey. hello ww.

try- nelly furtado- hello xx.

come clean-hilary duff- hello xx.

爱我的资格- she. hello ww.

恋人未满- she. hello xx.

安静- jay. hello xx.

these are NOT all time faves. lols.

diff song, reminds me of diff ppl. for eg.

pokerface- cheris

wun go home without you- bb

single- xw

not eazy- ryan

不够成熟- zz

我知道- zz

I dont want to be one of the many, i want to be the Only One.

no money=gloomy days

2010-01-28T00:23:00.000-08:00

i was fb-ing. when i saw kit's fb.
this is wad she post:
CIRCLE LINE IN APRIL !!! YESSSSSSS !!!! PAYA LEBAR TO BISHAN OR MARYMOUNT DAMN FREAKING FAST !!! YESSHAAAA !!!

LOL!! i agree with the YESHHA! ahaha.
cus its uber fast. and i will be so so much nearer t khatib. woots.
another reason t love april! LOL.
april rock man! my bday my bday my bday.
~~feb and march is so un-nice.~~
so. SKIP t april please.

i tried opening the files i korp.
then i realised i dunhav those image.
that means. i gotta edit. either that. or i edit chia wei's one. but his got no shopping cart.
either ways. i hav t edit.
i think i will edit what i korp.
cus its on CLOTHES..!
it'll perhaps. make it 10% easier for me. LOL.

i wanna go lagoon eat. i wanna visit queenie's shop.
but i got no $$.
fuck. i feel damn insecure now.
its has been so long that im broke till this state.
i think the last time was lik secondary 4?
its like. i got no money t even eat lei. wtf right.
dunno wtf i doing. )):
bad mood. so much things to do. yet so lil time.
and no money.

many ppl suggested that i get money from W.
i dunlik i dunlik i dunlik.
i feel lik i kana bao! nonono.
im uber proud that im financially independent.
dun ruin that. at least dun place the fact right smack in my face that im NOT independent anymore. )):
call that ego. call that pride. call that ai mian zi.
i dun care. i dun care. i dun care.
i dun mind guys paying for me. im used t it.
i dun mind guys paid for everything during dating.
i dun mind guys buying things for me.

BUT i mind guys paying when im broke.
but i mind guys giving me money when im broke.
maybe. its just one mth plus. i aren used t it yet.

but xx is right. once i accept it. im GG-fied.
and that reminds me of zz. how long i took ah?
i think 8mths? when he was at yoghurt place.
i'll never forget that.
uber touched. ((:
lalala. skip!

oh. did i mention in any of the previous post that i cut my hair?
i prefer long side fringe than the one im having now. the one im having now is short side fringe.
luckily got two weeks to cny.
fringe relatively grow faster than the rest of the hair.
i hope. grow hair grow!
kason suggested i perm my hair. should i? should i?
uber tempted. =S
that reminds me. i haven even buy my DIY hair perming thingy loh!
sai. $_$

tues. tues. take money from tek!
i wanna go for teeth whitening. then vroomvroom go crowning liao.
year 2010. muchmuch ops to do. )):
muchmuch $$ t spend.

huge SIGH*

i should do web base lik now. vroomvroomzoomiezoomz. )):
i'll see you when i see you.

looks are deceiving.

shopping while korping programmes

2010-01-28T00:07:00.000-08:00

did i say i wanna buy this? but stupid BC always get super limited quantity.
they always open BO so as t get exact stocks.
DAMMIT. ended up. i didn get wad i want.
i swear this time i very fast le. immd make trans. but i just aren fast enuf. )):
either their quantity is realli super limited.
or they are just too popular.
or im not fast enuf. )):

this is the back view. in black. i wanted PINK! boo. )):

THOUGHT of getthing this. but im afraid that i will look lik curtain. LOL.

i like her smile! haha. some eye candies for u guys?!
i only lik her smile. haha.

i wanna get this. should i!?!?

im getting girly these days. can u believe it. i want floral clothing. LOL

accio this!! OOS. )): anw, its too short for me. more )):

no $$ also.

rantrantrant

2010-01-27T23:38:00.000-08:00

WARNING: kailing is in the mood t blog. cus she got effing lotsa t rant.
feeling bored? dun read.
YOU MAY JUST FALL ASLEEP.

i keep telling myself. im just a lil lil stress.
lemme tell u abit on my calendar.
and perhaps u will unds why...

29/1 WEB BASED INFORMATICS presentation tml. (which i haven even start on the proj-GG)

30/1 painting of room

31/1 painting of room

1/2 FTT
1/2 POWER E quiz- tut 6&7 ONLY. pheww
1/2 SEMESTER PROJECT presentation

4/2 POWER E quiz
4/2 AUTOMATION quiz

5/2 WEB BASED INFORMATIC common test
5/2 SEMESTER PROJECT final submission

6/2 DRX

8/2 SEMESTER PROJECT QUIZ- whole book.. =GG-FIED

not t mention. somewhere in between.
i gotta take at least three days t do spring cleaning.
one- my own room
two- my bro's room
three- living room
four- my doggie's space
oh crap. i suck at numbers again!

THEN,
finally a short break. then comes personal stuffs.

12/2 ama reunion dinner. trust me. this dinner wun be relaxing. (ppl uber close close t me will noe why)

13/2 reunion dinner again.

14/2 valentines day- GG. i dunno wad t do

15/2 the scary visiting.

20/2 xx's bday. ( and he refuse t lemme celebrate for him. MORE stress)

1/3 FINAL YEAR PAPER.
-second bro bday

3/3 FINAL YEAR PAPER

8/3 FYP COMMENCES (nightmare)

holy shiit. my whole feb.
feb is a mth with full of stress.
march is a mth with bankruptcy.
two BFF, mummy, bro bday. = i GG.

april faster come! at least tats my bday. and i only needa extend my arm out.
get free huggies, free handshakes, wishes and presents! woohoo.

then again. big bro's bday is on april too. argh.
not t mention.
my fave uncle- aka jamescy's dad bday.
okk. forget everything.
rmb only APRIL 18. waha.

now im stressing over. wweb based de proj how!?
HQ reminded me sth. can go online search and view source wad!
then korp the prog. i was lik. YA HOH!
why didn i think of that.
now now. either im getting a tad idiot.
or im jjust plain idiot.
and so. i went t korp website that has shopping cart.
which seriously aren alot. only ten luh. =X

i feel lik a total thief. lik seriously. )):
i wanna edit my blog. but but. how to!? no time.
sighh. weekends gonna paint my room. ftt how? still needa do sem proj.
there goes my weekends.
time management kailing.. time management!
once again. screw it.
SINCE WHEN I SCORE IN THIS AREA!?!?!?

weekends definitely gonna get burn.
here's my plan.
after blogging. do the web base. study FTT a lil.
after getting bored of the theory. do sem proj.
if possible study power e quiz.
all this gotta be done within the weekends.
along with the painting of room.

im seriously considering. should i not paint.
no time! no time at all!
but then again.
zz is prolly right.
i gotta move on.
and my room. super reminds me.
with THAT big heart and stufs.

this is training for adulthood.
this is training for 2x life.
this is only round 1.
so NO. i gonna paint.
YES, i gonna do it all.

actually. seriously speaking. it can be done.
provided, i dun get distracted. LOL.

ok. thats all for ranting. i gonna do the next post NOW.
random stufs. haha. too much t blog man!

a small corner of my heart♥

2010-01-26T09:16:00.000-08:00

omg. i cant believe u found the key to one of the doorssss so fast.
im too easy.
too easy for you. )):<
leave some mercy.
before i lose it all and regret.

happy day!

2010-01-26T08:46:00.000-08:00

went out with gf-jes tdy!
woots. uber enjoyed myself. like super.
super enjoyable when shopping with her.
cus we r lik kinda the same style.
and we got lotsa common topic.

for eg. w and wq are of the same crappiness.
LOL. and both are super movie fanatic.

saw maggie and karyn tdy! more ((:

ytd, i actually waited.
waited for a call that nv come. -.-
lucky me. wait half an hour only.
first time wait. then so cui already. super dots loh.

did my teeth tdy. uber not satisfied. oh wells.
gotta do crowning soon. sighh.
doing my bleaching first. XD
aunty say i shudn do.
cus she say. my teeth is already using A1.
which is the whitest liao.
but the colour lik not even lei. )):
then she say i shud actually do braces. omg. heard it hurts lik no tml.
scared sia.
tho i feel girls with braces are kinda sexy. LOL!
but then. no food?! omg. nightmare.

instead of buying clothes at fep.
i bought lotsa lotsa bras. -.-!
wtf. 100+ worth of bras. can u imagine. oh my tian.
seriously.
i ought t save. tell that t my stubborn brain..

and whenever bonitochico update. i spend another 100+.
which isn good news. cus they update pretty often.
lik once a week kinda thing?
or once every two weeks.

jes love ck-be too! how coincidence~
i just spam lil W with ck-be. LOL.
and i let her smell lil W. then she was lik:
OMG! i love this smell also! wad is it ahh?
CK-be luh. then? my love man!

ok. i shud stop typing and ranting.
before i bored u guys t death.

uber lovess

2010-01-24T10:35:00.000-08:00

i uber love this two photos.

suck it. till i over this obsession.

u will constantly see this two photos.

super family lik feeling. ((:

im falling in love with myself.
i dun care if this look emo.
im emo. rarrh!

iloveck-be

2010-01-24T09:46:00.000-08:00

working for G city sucks big time
lik seriously.
pone-d work on sunday. =X

super bad worker.
then now. i really wonder.

in just three days. got two weird girls add me.
i wonder. are they even real girls.

one even claim t get my email from fb. which is ridiculous?
cus my email is concealed. only frens can see.
arghh. W keep saying she is a guy.
but "she" is lik same sch as me.
ACCORDING TO HER that is.
she saw me at block S.
o.O i mean. email.
will normal ppl just add a girl cus she saw the email?

weird. weird. weird. lesbian! lol!
well. if she really is a girl. i dun mind making fren.
that is IF she IS a girl.

anw. back t hearts affairs.
i think. after the testing water part i took two nights ago.
im slowly taking a step forward without realising it.
oh shiit?!
i dunno whether shud i be alarmed.
or shud i be glad.
xxzz! how?! sians.
sure kana smack head again. )):

and you know wad. i got TWO box of royce choc at my place now.
the same flavour somemore.
but then cnt eat now. )):
cus someone says. chocs will cause MORE headache.
and im still having headache.
and that someone. nv even help me massage my head tdy loh!
pfftt.
wads the point of complaining?
when that someone dun even hav my link.
grrrrrrr.

i think its abt high time i ~~shud~~ declare?
yet yet. i keep pushing it away.
afraid t take the step.
keep using the excuse that i will do everything.
after i have my proper meetup with xxzz.

omg. useless bitch.
maybe i shudn do the testing of water.
then i will be safer wad! urgh.
curious for wad F.

stiff shoulder. ear infection. headache. ))):

IM FAT. cy says im FAT.
he say i everything bigGer now.
wad shud be bigger nv become bigger.
what shud be small became bigger.
wtfwtfwtfwtf.

iya. i keep forgetting wad i wanna say in my blog. dammit.
forget it. i should sleep.
lecture at 10 tml.
i shud pone loh.
debarrment meeting is tml. now pone also nth will happen.
stupid partner. forced t go sch bcus of him!
dammitdammitdammit.

im kailing lei. why liktt~~~

shopping please, lik seriously.

btw, legion isn nice at all! dun watch.
if u have to, which i dun encourage, watch it on a weekday.
please spend only 6bucks on it.
storyline no good. story not smooth. waste of $. zz
anw, not i pay, so why m i complaining?!

on a sidenote: tooth fairy is quite funny. and cute for girls. LOL.

happy day!

2010-01-21T10:33:00.001-08:00

happy happy day!
cy bought me royce chocs ytd!
super dark chocs. LOVELOVE.
oh. and incanto charms. MORE ❤❤

met him tdy AGAIN.
pei-ed him shopping AGAIN.
he bought shirts, shorts for cny le. whereas me. )):
i haven evn buy any. )):

and we went his mama's hse! super super long nv see aunty le!
jessica. that pretty lil girl. uber love her looks luh.
jealous*
uberuber jealous.
why i dunhav such long lashes.
why i dunhav such big eyes.
why my eyes not as crystal sparkling lik hers! GAH.

sidetrack.
i super love the pic i took with cy. uber nice. its my wallpaper for now!
and his display pic! woots. lovelove. ((:

played with his mutant hamster.
omg. i cudn tell the sex.
at first i tot the "hamster" is pregnant.
cus the backside damn heavy!
end up u noe wadd.
its a male. his balls too big. thus the weight, WTFWTFWTF.
LOL.

ok. i dunno wad t say anymore.
headache. killing me. )):
BYEEEEEEE

cycycycy

2010-01-21T09:08:00.000-08:00

xx

2010-01-19T10:49:00.000-08:00

xue zhang-yan feng(海派甜心)

reminds me of xx.

like super.

except that. this is drama.

its unreal.

the epi is turning into sth cliche.

gross. ending better be nice. lik seriously.

why feels like boys over flower/meteor garden ending sia.

touched

2010-01-19T09:07:00.001-08:00

tdy went for class, late again.
1-3 class.
i reached at 2+. steady uh? haha

kinda grateful t yat, for teaaching me power e
for telling me not t be late tdy cus lab tdy is impt.
for smsing me t nag me WHERE M I ALREADY!? haha
dunno why. sucha small thing maybe.
but i really feel touched.
hormones.. hormones.. haha. must be the girly hormones acting up.

w went t pluck his wisdom tooth tdy. OUCH.
lik seriously. he kept bleeding n bleeding.

watched jump. not veh nice. still prefer step up2 tho.
oh well. i think i missed step up3. )): there is right? cnt rmb its 2 or 3 that i missed.

super sian loh. during THAT period. i missed alot alot movies.
for eg. 007, night at the museum 2.
i watched all the part 1. but missed all the part 2.
becus of somebody. nah. shalln mention the name.

i miss dance. really. yet. i really really dance with two left feets and hands.

went t find cy. lovelove. ((: ❤
tgt we ate supper.
and saw kw and nick.
super de qiao.

but thruout. i feel uncomfy. lik. they are trying t dig some stufs out of me.
i dunno isit i sensitive. but both cy and w agrees with me.
soo.. what is it? i dunno. why is that so? i dunno..

im loving gucci envy me, incanto fasinating. lols.
cy spritz super lotsa perfume on me. zzzzz.
and i got alot alot of the "paper sample" perfume in my bag. zz

boring~ back t 海派甜心. ((:

XXZZ

2010-01-18T06:21:00.000-08:00

Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face

I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Seasons are changing

And waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the oneI will never let you fall (let you fall)

I'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it all (through it all)

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart

Please don't throw that away

Cuz I'm here for you

Please don't walk away and

Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you willPull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I'll be okay

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Stuck With Each Other

You can, think you can get free
You think you won't need me
That you're gonna get you somethin' better,
But you know that we're in this forever,
And you can, think you can walk out
Even with your doubts,
But you know that we're in this together
You can try to push me from you
Nothing you do will keep us a part
[Chorus: Shontelle]
Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it, baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin you can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other(stuck in love with each other)
[Akon]
Yeah
Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there,
Tell myself that I'll be fine without ya
but I would die if I was not around ya,
and I can try to convince you
I don't need to be with you,
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,
What can I do, love is like glue.
There's no way to
Tear us a part
Cause it's too late (too late, too late)
There's no escape, might as well face it,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (with each other)
ain't nothin i can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
yes, we belong here,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other(stuck in love with each other)
[Bridge: Shontelle]
There's nothing i'd rather do
Than to sit with you forever
Can't think of nothin better
Than to be stuck with you
Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin we can do about it
Oh yeah
Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin I can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
Yes, we belong herebaby, we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other(stuck in love with each other)
Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin we can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
Yes we belong here,baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other(stuck in love with each other)
Ain't nothin gonna stop me and you ey
Cause you know we just stuck like glue ey
Akon
Ain't nothin we can do
We stuck in love with each other

iwantxxzz

2010-01-18T06:04:00.000-08:00

i feel terrible. uber terrible

seriously.

its time like this.

i regretted.

regretted for forgetting.

regretted for ignoring.

regretted for pretending.

GAHHH.

i want xxzz. )):

only xxzz makes me happy.

xxzz wun lemme feel this way.

URGHHHH!

dyingoutonme

2010-01-18T05:32:00.000-08:00

i feel weird!
i feel bored!
oh no.

anw. tdy. pone class. =X
pone sem proj. threw him alone. oops?

suppose t play l4d. but i didn.
instead. we stayed in kfc and hav some bitchy talk. LOL.
and. that kfc guy is soooo cute!
he and his droid manners. LLOL!
uber cute! haha. XOXO

ithinkitsdyingoutonme

its getting heavy.

2010-01-17T08:59:00.001-08:00

i gotta meet zz soon. lik asap.

i got truckloads of stufs t dump.

truckloads of questions to ask.

like super. meet me asap u bitch!

imissxxzz

xoxo

weird out

2010-01-17T08:49:00.000-08:00

totally weird out.
cus of blahblah reasons. shallnt say why.

worked for audiohouse again. for two days.
toshiba laptop again. sighh. lil lil commm. if only its newstead.
i would hav earn 350 for two days. operative word: IF
sigh*

nonetheless. im a step nearer t my wants.
two steps further from my frens.
becus of this stupid assignment.
i missed mj, club, supper and a bit of bbq.
luckily got sell until.
and colleagues isn that bad.

apart from there are lotsa wolves there.
cheenass and banglahhss. job environment isn that bad
wudn mind t work next week again. XDXD

gah! stiff shoulder again. )):
pained for a few days le. somebody help me massage please?!

played a lil water war tdy during lunch and dinner.
uber fun. haha. but. the price t pay abit not worthy sia!
if i noe there's a price t pay. wouldn hav hold back
regret!regret!regret!

perhaps im not ready yet.

tired.

2010-01-15T03:26:00.001-08:00

fucking tired. -_____-

keep falling asleep. dammit.

ilovemyshelter, dun move away, dun lemme go thru that pain again.

2010-01-14T11:32:00.000-08:00

zz says i gotta start believing.
but can i? i mean seriously can i?
he of all ppl shud noe. why wudn i.
why cnt i.
oh dammit dammit.
this is just so great uh?

bitchyness. m i really so predictable.

mj tml. and i cnt tawn.
cus i've work the next day.
great. my life is so damn good.

its either work or frens isn it.
but. i took quite a long break. i shud go back t work.
right!?
plus. i really got truckloads of wishlist i wanna get.

i mean. if i dun work. how m i gonna get it?!
drop from sky!?!?
or anyone buying for me!?!?

i dun mind. but then again
the satisfaction only comes when i buy it myself.
*chuckle.
talk abt pride. talk abt ego.

wad kinda girl m i. t uphold such stupid motherearth ego.

anw. this actually reminds me of sth.
headstrong. really.
headstrong caused me t lose someone impt t me
and. some stupid foreboding kinda thing.
i feel history will repeat itselfs.
i wanan change. yet doesn want.
haha. contradiction.
once bitten twice shy?
doesn seems t apply for me
your girl here. need more than two times.

stubborn, headstrong, dignity, pride, egoism. wad a mix.
wad a nice blend i hav.

they say im emo. i think im too. haha.
they say im crazy. i agree
they say im wild. i..... okay.. to a extend only.
haha.

lotsa things t do for the month of feb.

i hav ftt, three quiz, two mini proj, two final year paper. painting of room, cny, valentines day, xx bday and sth else.

this is just so great.
time management kailing.
time management...
fuck it. since when i score in this area!?

not t mention fyp/iap will commence two weeks aft my paper.

oh. and i needa organise at least THREE clique outing.
one. bffs. gotta make the yishun bff come out of her cocoon. tell me. how m i gonna do it man!
two. hu er-sentosa
three. hu er-club
four. tek media-club. before kw goes back sydney. screw the spelling.

now... numbers failed me. its four. great great.

dear xx,
rmb, you are not alone. im here. with you. ((:
ur 21 bday. there is kailing with you.
i wun let ur 21 bday become misery!
u are stuck with me baby! haha. lovelove.
❤❤

i dun care. xxzz. u both. stuck with me.
fucking stuck with me.

and i dun giv a fucking shiit whether will u all hamper my r/s or no.
becus if the one is the one.
and if he is the one. he will be. and wun leave becus of u two.
if he minds. he can fuck off. ((:

becus the one. will only be the one. if he accept the whole package. ((:
haha. the one. where are you!? ni zai na li!?

once again(xxzz isn bf. they are brothersssss! haha)
i can never unds platonic frenship. till it actually happens t me. ((:

lucky bitch. two shelter. cnt complain can i? ((:
shelter dun move hse ok. stay.

i want!!

2010-01-13T11:07:00.000-08:00

stupid amanda. is damn fast in tagging uh?
hahaha. i just told her the link not long nia. then the tag come in liao.

told xx and bff this link. ((:

i gonna put up a pic of xx man. but then. haha. special edition!
wait till i get my time. all the album in the template shall be changed.

muahha. oh. did i mention.
wilson bought me t watch this hindi show.
called three idiots. fucking funny. i swear! lols..
watch it ppl. its damnnnn hilarious!

oh. and i bought my burberry wallet. XDXD

aiming that bag and that bag. $970, $1020. oh my tian. i gonna die.

hello people. im backie!

2010-01-11T10:16:00.000-08:00

hello people. im back. HAHA.

❤❤

okie. mia from blogging world for quite some time.
but life without ____. has got nth for me t blog!
not really actually. actually. life back then was kinda wild.
but then again. cus too wild so no time t blog ma!

im listening t addicted. kinda random. but i just wanna say it out.

im thinking of publicising(open t public) this blog. wad do ya think?!

gonna tell people like xx, zz, bffs, gfs abt it.

old rules. some names just cnt be named. eg. xx. haha. and prolly zz.

i was thinking of hopping over t tumblr or onsugar.
but then. i lazy do template. so. bear with my laziness.
lets stick t the traditional blogspot baby!

ok. so update update...! from my prev post from prev link.
ppl, dun bother finding prev blog. its gone. G-O-N-E
2010 has been kinda good t me. except for some kinks.
some problem with bff.
nonetheless, i believe we will get thru it.
urm. well. more lik i hope. aye. next topic~

oh. on a brighter note.
guess wad. i scored an "C" for POWER E!
oh my tian.
i feel uber proud of myself now. *claps
know why!? know why!?
cus i only spent a few hours mugging over it. XD

and i didn listen t his lect/tut/pract. woots
and its lik suppose t be killer module.
all of us felt the paper killed us all.
but i passed! not with a "D". BUT "C".

woots. bootie dance.
oh. and im obsessed with clubs. i love RNB and mambo.
call me hardcore clubber. cus i dun giv a damn anymore.

wad else m i doing now lei. (thinking......)
getting car license?
working in tek media.
-olympus camera? sometimes samsung?
-windows phone
-toshiba laptop
-acer laptop
blahblah.
l4d2 considered? aha.

OH! by the way. i love xx!
xx is not my bf(FYI)
but xx make my life feel almost perfect!
not t mention zz. super thankful for that night. thanks brotherss!!

oh. and me and childhood fren sorta close the dist between us again!
see~ 2010 not bad uh?

hai pai tian xin is nice!
show's hair is mad suave.

and i intend t paint my room purple.
ceiling will be this colour.
furniture i thinking of painting RED.

XOXO

i will update. just very slow.