♥ ; Saturday, January 30, 2010
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
xxzz
i noe you(s) are reluctant t help. becus. you(s )feel. i should start to.
perhaps, handle it on my own.
but why you never stop t think what is it that i want.
instead of telling me i should this and that.
why cnt i hav both.
why must i hav only one.
i rather giv up than lose.
if i must lose my frens cus of this.
i rather not hav.
i rather not.
dun make me choose. dun..
worse come t worst. i will giv up all.
***
rather than keep being throw all over. just becus becus.
if im sucha burden. then leave me alone. dun throw me to him.
just becus he is of diff status. it doesn mean i must lose my frens.
perhaps. you(s) are afraid that you(s) will hamper.
but u aren me.
***
u didn go thru what is called pain and all alone.
u din go thru wad is called abandon by bffs and gfs and goodfrens.
perhaps one of you(s) are going thru it now.
if so. shudn u be able t unds why m i so stubborn on this point?!?!
i dunwant t go thru that darkest moment again.
i dunwant i dunwant i dunwant.
***
maybe i fell. maybe i stood up again.
but that wound was never healed.
maybe i want that wound t remind me.
not t do the same mistake again.
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why cnt it be the same.
just like when i was at status quo?
perhaps. not exactly same.
but it shudn be like this.
i shudn be thrown t him liktt.
i shudn.
i hav my choices too.
i do..
i want my life balanced.
***
i dunwan t stupidly believe what i used t believe again.
i dunwanna giv up ppl who are impt t me ever again.
i dunwan go thru those dark moment ever again.
dontwant...
***
kailing is no longer the old kailing.
i dun live for one only.
no longer.
and hopefully.
never ever again.
***
u need water, air and food t live.
dun just gimme air.
i need my water and food too.
do you(s) unds?
all are impt t me.
i need all.
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